On {~Date~} I was sexually assaulted by a man I thought I loved. At first, I blamed myself. I thought if I reported him I would ruin his life, no realizing he had already ruined mine. My sense of safety is gone, my security is gone, my power is gone. I finally had the courage to " stand up for myself and it backfired on me. On {~Date 2~}, {~Name~} victim shamed me to my lowest point. Her words hurt me deeper than the actual assault. I felt so powerless and defenseless again! She called me a liar, because his lies sound better than my truth. She accused me of making up a story, as if she was there when he put a gun to my head! I had never first hand experienced victim blaming but this is definitely the most horrifying experience I have ever experienced.