I don't even know how to start since my life has been a mess from the beginning. so I had been sexually assaulted by my so-called cousin when I was like 10. we lived in the same neighborhood plus we are family so he has lots of reasons to show up at our house at first his company was great since I had no one by my side things started to change when he tries to make weird physical contact and I didn't even understand the things he does to me he says it was just part of the game but all I remember now is that I was very uncomfortable and I couldn't tell my family about it because my mom and dad had a harsh divorce so we moved back to my grand parent's house and they were mad at the situation and if I add this situation they would blame my mom and make her feel bad about it so I didn't say a word and the thing continued for like 3 years but I had enough it was traumatizing for me so I yelled at him so bad one day and as usual he tried to threaten me and left and luckily his family moved to another place so he stopped coming to the house and I thought I would forget about all that and start over but it was impossible. I hated my life and myself. it really messed me up