I lost my virginity at age 15 and got pregnant. I charmed in thinking it was love. Being heart broken, seeking desperately for attention I was taking advantage of by a close family friend. He gave me what I wanted and told me what I needed to hear, in return I would have sex with him over and over again. My family was always so distant, so they would care less. He had is way with me for years until I was old enough to put a stop to it once and for all. I still find myself lost in those years, looking for a father figure in different men just to get pregnant and lied to. Unspeakable abortions and three kids. Still thinking if I had my father around to beat me for standing next to a boy, I would be better off with bruises and scars.