For the longest time I felt I was drowning so I thought that was the way to get out of it. In 2020 I tried to end my life in my bathtub. From a young age my step brother has molested me till he turned 18 and moved out. I was 9 when it finally stopped. I thought that would be the end of it. When I was 20 and living on my own I invited a person who I thought was my friend over. He took advantage of the fact it was dark outside and I lived 45 minutes away from his house. I allowed him to stay the night. He found his way into my bed and started kissing me while I was trying to sleep. I kept telling him no but my body was so weak from lack of sleep I passed out. I woke up to him putting himself inside me. I was too tired to fight back. The next morning he texted me like nothing happened. I blocked him on everything. He made a new account to follow which I blocked as well. After the incident I went to work like nothing happened but I was struggling and later that night tried to take my life.