You are worth happiness.
What started out as agreeing to a first date from a mutual friend, ended in a stalker, turned abuser. He was a smart man who gaslighted me all the way to the alter. The first instance of abuse was pretty severe. I had just left the house we shared when he chased after me and began to rip me out of my car as to prevent me from leaving. Over the next year, he quit his jobs twice, moved us four times and left me on a bathroom floor for over 7 hours in hospital level kidney stone pain. I realized he did not care for my well being; so i made up my mind to leave him. It took me 5 tries to leave. The worst attempt was him finding my packed bags, and immediately he grabbed my phone, grabbed my wrist and began a hour long battle over chasing me to take away my freedom to leave the house. This relationship was based in kidnapping me, keeping my freedom away from me. I am so glad i am free now. I did years of therapy after wards. If i could give any advice; listen to your gut when it tells you someone is not for you.