What its like to lose purpose of living.
It all started back in 2017, I met a "girl", we got along and we were supposed to be a thing. Turns out she looked/seemed like a "girl" but she was a junkie and surprisingly a mother, had a baby and a lot of conflicts between her and her husband. They had 7 cases running on in court. As soon as I know, I called everything off and moved on. 2 years later, I was engaged, had the job of my dreams, side hustles and everything. One day I got a call from a police station asking me to turn myself in for an investigation. Of course I did care a lot about my reputation that I had to go myself after telling my family. I was 21 then. I had false accusations and bribe going on with my case. It's the woman back in 2017. There were videos of her sleeping with different men while she's married! There was nothing at all in her phone but my phone number, and so, I got thrown in jail for 4 months. Completely shocked of what's happening to me, got abused in jail, got extras from the guards because of her husband bribing around. I had nothing to do with this at all! Moving on, my cousin is a man-of-law, he forced a way out for me by bailing till whatever comes next. I got out completely a different person, I lost my fiancé, my job, my hustles, my car, my reputation, everything.. I'm 24 now and my case is still going, haven't gotten back there, case isn't closed either, but because we're asking for a case-review from everyone in charge, government, princes, princesses and even the king himself. We did that for 3 whole years, but nothing worked, one more time, the bribe ruined everything for me. As I said, I'm 24 and my case is still on, a lot of psychological pain, matter of fact it's not just psychological for me, it turned into physical pain. My fingers cramp, my thighs and calves. I don’t/can’t sleep, my back is one solid pain, I don’t eat right. I lost a lot of weight, my heart hurts me the ENTIRE time, literally. Can't think straight, lost hope, faith and purpose of living. Living in complete depression. After all this, I'm being asked to turn myself in next Sunday, they're throwing me back in jail for a whole year. I just wanted to share my miserable story, full of pain. I feel so blue, cold and a lot of darkness everywhere. Thank you all for passing by.