The blood is dry and that’s the saddest part of it all
It’s like— it’s harder after a lot of time has passed. I feel like I’m betraying myself to move on, like there’s some justice in being stuck on it forever. I feel like I’m letting a part of myself go if I allow myself to be happy again. It’s weird. I feel less allowed to be upset or depressed. Like I don’t have a right. At the same time, the more months that pass make me doubt more and more that what happened was bad. It’s harder as time goes on.