Ten years of hell
I was groomed by two military guys at 15 who promised to help me get fit to join myself. I met up with one and we went for a walk to discuss it and he raped me in a wooded area. Afterwards he held my hand and walked back, he then text me nicely to say he wanted me to be his girlfriend when I was 16 and then he threatened me not to tell anyone. I felt lost and confused. The second military guy then noticed I was different in communicating and asked what was wrong. I told him and he asked me if I was going to do anything about it. I said no because I wasn’t sure what had happened. He then suggested I meet him to talk and when I did he raped me too, knowing I wouldn’t go to the police. For 9 months the second one made me meet him to rape me repeatedly with threats and made me send videos and photos until he was moved away. Whilst this happened the first was also threatening me to keep communication whilst on a tour in afghan. I bottled it up for ten years, I saw a few physically and emotionally abusive people until I tried to commit suicide 2019 ten years after the event. After intense therapy, a lot of work on my confidence and realising I am not defined by my rape I am here, in my dream job, with my dream guy. Just know that how low it gets, how hard it may seem, how much hope is lost, there is ALWAYS a better future ahead.