I think I may have been a victim of sexual abuse when i was a child. I still have clear memories of what happened. I'm not sure if what my brain thinks is due to it but, I constantly think of sex and need to masterbate most of the time. I also tend to find older men attractive. I'm not sure what to think of this and would like help explaining, since I've been exposed to sexual content from a young age and still constantly have the thoughts in my mind.