I was raped by my ex, in my apartment, while I was intoxicated. I was under the impression we were drinking together, but he stopped before me. Before I could realize he had stopped drinking I was black out drunk and in and out of consciousness. I only remember He digitally and orally raped me vaginally and anally. I had a suspected miscarriage a month later, and from an infection he gave me, I suspect he did more that night when I was unconscious. I have reported to police and I’m waiting on grand jury deliberation for a felony rape charge against him. He lives a minute from me and until I’m financially able I’m unable to move, so everyday I live in fear. He used to share fantasies of raping me by breaking in so I have safety measurements in place.