I was 15 at the time and he was 18 and even though that wasn't illegal were I lived even though I was under the age of consent and there was nothing I could do after, it still feels so wrong. I thought it was fine at the time during the relationship, he was my first ever and I had no prior experiences before with anyone. He did, he had so much more experience than me and I think that's why he liked taking advantage of me. Pressuring me to do sexual things to him that I didn't want to do and told him I didn't want to but still did because I didn't feel like I had a voice. Any chance or option to say no because even if I did it wouldn't matter. No matter how I felt, I realize now never mattered to him at all. What I wanted was completely unimportant all that mattered was how he felt and if he wanted to have sex not me. I was nothing more than an object, I was just a doll to him.