It started as a toddler. I don't know how old exactly but I was in diapers when it started. It happened until i was around the age of 8 by a "cousin". I grew up having problems. Chronic UTIs, migraines, pelvic pain, nightmares, flashbacks, anxiety, depression and more. I was diagnosed with PTSD, Bipolar type 1, Boarderline personality disorder, Anxiety, and severe Depression. The first memory i have is him having me to touch "it". I was probably around 4 or 5 at that time. ( I only know it happened earlier then that because my dad told my inhome counselor in front of me.(at 14 years old) He witnessed me being hurt when I was in diapers at my grandparents. ) I have bits and pieces of horrible memories of him raping me. Vaginally, oral, and anally.. 😭 When I first came out and told my mom and dad that he hurt me. I was told I was a liar and they said he never done anything to me. It messed me up. I'm 23 and still have problems. But He wasn't the only one to hurt me but he was the worse! Others such as a "grandpa", preacher, another cousin and a friends brother has sexually hurt me. I am healing but I still feel like I did something for them to hurt me in the way they did. Like a sign on my forehead saying hurt me. Or a sign saying slut. I don't date and I don't have normal relationships. It really has f****d me up. But I take it one day at a time. I'm slowly healing.