“You are not alone. It was not your fault. It is possible to heal. It is not too late.” When you've been sexually abused by a pedophile, it creates issues and experiences that, in recovery, are very difficult for non-abuse survivors to understand. Even 45 years after the abuse ended (as in my case), you still respond to stress and certain circumstances that are just not relatable to others who have not been through the same mess. Most of us survivors have learned through years of hard experience that we should not share our struggles with others. We simply aren't going to get an understanding response, even from people who care, because they cannot (fortunately for them) grasp the effects of having been raped as a child. I was close to shutting down because of the flashback of memories and the overwhelming sadness that was flooding my head. For the longest time, I've kept my secret bottled up because I had no place that I felt comfortable enough to go to and discuss the nightmarish he'll I live with every day. We Are Survivors and You Are Not Alone.