as a survivor, i have never been through so much pain. i was six and i was at my sisters house with my best friend {~name~}. i’ve known {~name~} forever, my brother from another mother. that night he watched me change into my polka dot nightgown thinking it was funny and giggling behind the door. btw he was 8. and he then raped me that night, “a game” he said as he put his hand on my shoulder. the 2nd time, i was still six. we were gonna watch the land before time because it was almost the end of the kindergarten year. i was waiting on the carpet for my best friend{~name 2~}. midway through the movie he touched me, continuously kissing my neck and cheek, then put his cold hands down my cat and jack leggings. the teacher yelled and we went in the hallway. she yelled at me like it was my fault, but i haven’t seen him till this day. no matter how much pain i want to put on him, i believe that it was done on him and he thought it was okay. but that is no excuse. i’ve blamed myself for years and years and now i’m speaking the truth. when i told people this happened i said it happened a much recent time so they would believe me. no matter how hard it may be, you will get through it. i’ve been to countless places, some may help, some might not. but speak the truth, speak for you. cause at the end of the day it’s not “man or bear”, it’s the fact that you survived that. you will get through it ml.