Estimada lectora, la siguiente historia contiene lenguaje autolesión que puede herir su sensibilidad y algunos pueden encontrarse incomodos.
Mensaje para una sobreviviente
Start loving yourself. Start choosing yourself. Start spoiling yourself. Start accepting failure and embrace imperfections that the world has offer. Not everything comes easy. It is okay to be discourage, it is okay to be disappointed, it is okay to be sad and it okay because this is you. You have felt all this because you are so strong to endure it. And the up above; the one who actually believes on you because he won't put you in situations you cannot handle. Lift yourself, stand up and do it again. But this time make it wise. If plan A didn't work the do plan B but with a progress. Live life to the fullest. Picture yourself in making those decisions. Be wise. Because in the end, it is you who is always there for yourself.
Mensaje de sanidad
I have cure myself before by surrounding myself with people that are funny and drinking some liquids that will let you travel into the world where you feel free. It is escaping from the reality until you forgot the things that makes you sad. It is a very long process. It is getting used to see things, to hear things, to eat foods, and to smell normally that isn't ordinary before. And that things are significant because you're with your significant person. And that was before.
To be fully healed, we must absorb all our emotions that is drowning us. We must accept that not all are worth to be saved. That we are either a blessing or a lesson.
What do you do when you are in love? How do you take care of each other? How do you give assurance that they are the best that you have? and that how do you not rest in love?
I suffer depression. And having the thought of dying would solve and finish all the emotions that is drowning me. Just because I am begging for love. I am begging because I thought when I give love, they offer me love too. Love is an amazing feeling you can do while living. You get inspire to work everyday because of that person. You are motivated and eager to accomplish things because you know that's what makes him happy. You spoil him your love, effort and time. You pray for him and made promises and plans, but it was just a fairytale that both of you created. Well, it was 'both of us' at first until it is 'I' alone and leaving me dumbfounded.
..... and here I am today, still thinking what did I do? How did I not have a reason to walkaway first? and how did he not have a reason to stay?