#451
Historia original
I am a trans guy and i was physically, emotionally, and sexually abused by my older sister. i don't know when the cocsa first started or when it ended, but it lasted for years. It happened so many times. Sometimes I would be a willing participant in the 'games'. Other times i was uncomfortable, other times downright terrified and forced. And the thing was, she'd create these stories of murder and torture and slavery and mutilation. We'd come up with characters who we'd "roleplay" as. Sometimes she made me play the abuser but i hated it. It's weird having been forced to roleplay RAMCOA scenarios because now i feel so much pain from that despite it not being actually real Its really difficult having abuse that went on for so long because it involved so many different experiences. I feel the guilt of "participating" but also the hatred from the times where i was forced.