Message of Healing
Healing has meant taking care of that little girl, rather than dissociating from her. Reintegrating her experience with love and allowing myself to feel the pain that I had suppressed for so long. It meant not having to "be strong" anymore. Holding those adults accountable for their actions, even if just in my heart. They could've done better and didn't. That's their burden to bare and not mine.
Where to start when it is a life-long journey. A few moments of his pleasure has been a lifetime of recovery and healing for me. It has taken a lot of work, a lot of working through to live a life where I can more freely give and receive love.