7yrs old. full of life and hope. new “relative” entered my life.. looking back now i could tell he was clingy.. it started small by playing games that would lead to uncomfortable moments.. having to mature quickly.. having to understand.. heavily groomed.. was given a ultimatum of allow him to do what he was doing or he said he would do it to my sisters. younger sisters. as i got older it turned darker. being dragged to back fields, drugged and would wake up in the dark.. alone.. hurting and having to find my way back, being locked in his closet for what seemed like forever… i’m sure he wife knew by now.. but paid no attention.. at 13 he thought he had gotten me pregnant. sent me a message to leave the world and he would do the same. that was my first attempt.. luckily it failed but the abuse and rape continues for another year… 7 years.. 7 years of pain, confusion, constant fear, crippling anxiety and depression. all for it to be a lie… all for cps to show up to my school, to hear my youngest sister was in fact not safe.. not like he promised. 4-6 days every week wasn’t enough for him. he turned my mother and i against each other.. he isolated me, degraded me, emotionally and mentally abused me, physically ruined me… the amount of triggers i have is insane.. i feel bad for anyone i get close to… he went to jail for 3 years… released ‘18 my ex raped me while i slept. just a couple years ago. he knew everything about my childhood. yet still did it, said it was only that one time. but who knows. that broke me.