started off as a good day, i got my license. good day at school, got my nails done with my mom. i went to his house afterwards, and he put on a movie. we talked and we kissed. he wanted more, i did what i was comfortable with. he still wanted more. the word "no" escaped his vocabulary that day. he didn't know what it meant. i pushed his hands away but afraid to do more. i was paralyzed in fear. my throat felt closed. my body was stiff. he finished all over me and then left me there. i went home. it was a long time before i could be touched again. the fear of history repeating itself is in my mind as i walk down the street. i haven’t seen him in 4 years. i drive by his house sometimes on my way home and i feel like i am drowning. my friends know the story but they don’t understand. i still get nightmares. will it ever end?